All I want is to get this weight off my chest. I have a live-in partner (LIP) with whom I have been living for five years. Last November, I had a urinalysis because I was worried about my kidneys. Thank God, the results were fine so I felt relieved.
But this June, I had another urinalysis because we had a free time at work. I was surprised when the results came out—I was positive for t.vaginalisis or STD. My world almost collapsed because I had no other s3x partner but my LIP. So the first thing that came to my mind was that maybe he got infected from someone else and passed it to me. When I told him this, he denied it all. He said he had never had s3x with anyone else.
But until now, no matter how many times I confronted him, he still denies it. I immediately got checked and took medication because that was the doctor's advice. The doctor said I would be cured but the STD would come back if I had s3x with him again if he didn't get treatment. The problem is, he doesn't want to get checked and he doesn't want to take medication. He says he's not sick and he didn't cheat.
So now, I'm so confused. I want to believe him because I love him, but what if it's true that he brought this disease? I don't have any other relationships. He's the only man I've ever slept with. If he wasn't the source, where else could it have come from? Even the doctor said that the treatment would cost ₱2,500 to ₱5,000 and that we should both get treatment, because if I were the only one taking the medicine, it wouldn't matter—I'd get infected and get reinfected.
It's hard to think that maybe he cheated on me and he just can't admit it. I don't know if I should still trust him or if I need to let go of our relationship. It hurts because we've been together for five years, and it's just going to end like this. But it's even harder if I keep suffering because of a pain that wasn't my fault.
