Hi, just call me May, 37 years old. I just want to vent about the weight I'm feeling right now and ask for advice. My partner and I have been together for five years. We are live-in partners, we are not married, but for me, our family is complete. I have a child from my previous relationship and he accepted that. In the five years, I can say that our relationship has been good. We haven't had any big fights, especially about jealousy. Absolutely none. I love him very much and I feel that he loves me too. That's why I never thought I would end up in this situation.
Do you know what happened? I found out that he was engaged to someone else—back in May. And what's even more painful is that they're getting married this November. Do you know that feeling of being left in the air? I don't know how to deal with this. He said that his family only wanted him because the woman was rich. It seems so superficial, but that's how it is with them. I don't know if I'll understand or if it'll hurt me even more.
I'm so confused right now. We've been together for five years, all our plans, it seems like they've suddenly been erased. I don't know if I should still chase him or if I should just let him go. It's hard to think that while I love him so much, he agreed to marry someone else. I also don't know if I'm still fighting if his own family is forcing him. Honestly, it hurts so much. I feel like I'm worthless.
You know that feeling when you did everything you could to make your relationship work, and in the end, it wasn't enough? I don't know where I went wrong. I also don't know how I'm going to accept that he's marrying another woman. And not just any girlfriend—they're engaged. There's a wedding date. As I write this, I'm crying. Because the truth is, I still love him. I don't want to lose him. But how can I fight when it seems like I'm not his choice anymore?
So now, I'm asking for advice. What should I do? Should I keep fighting for him? Is there still hope? Or should I let him go even though it hurts? I don't want to fool myself anymore, but I also don't want to give up without a fight. My mind is in turmoil. I hope you can help me because I don't know where to start if he's gone from my life.
