The truth is, I'm struggling. I have a boyfriend now (26M), and I'm 25. We've been together for over four months, but until now, he hasn't posted or shared me on social media even once. His family and friends still don't recognize me, not even a simple greeting on Facebook.
I keep thinking, why do I seem so secretive? Because I know, before, his ex used to post almost every day. Even on a simple date, he always had a story. Even small things, he shared. But for me, even when we went out of town, he only posted about the place but never about me. What's even more painful is that his family still knows his ex, even his mother and sister wish him a happy birthday on social media. While I don't.
I told him this. He said he's learned to be private now and doesn't need to show everything online. I understand that, but why does it seem like I'm the only one he can't post about? Instead of calling me his girlfriend, I feel like he's hiding me.
I don't ask him to post my face or our activities every day. Just once, that's enough. I just want him to feel proud of me, that he can introduce me even in a small way. Even if it's just a simple story about us being together, that's a big deal to me.
I know it's not good to compare, but I can't help it. I feel like I'm not enough. I just want to be acknowledged, even if it's a small thing. It hurts to feel like I'm his secret, when before, he could show everyone someone else.
I'm not saying I hate him, but I hate the feeling of being hidden. I want respect, I want pride. I ask, am I wrong to ask for even a simple post? Am I immature if I feel like he can't show me around his world?
