The truth is, I've been wanting to express this feeling for a long time. I'm 37 years old, and a solo mother of my 3 children. Their father has been away from the family for six years because he moved in with someone else. Since then, I've been supporting my children alone, and I've almost lost my appetite for life. I went through severe depression, and I hardly ever went to church.
Last year, a 30-year-old man came into my life. He was my first relationship after my ex-husband and I divorced. He was kind, respectful, and I would say a green flag man. He was someone who helped me get closer to God again. Honestly, because of him, I felt love and my value as a woman again.
But lately, I can't stop thinking too much. I'm always nervous and crying because I'm afraid he'll leave me too, like my ex-husband did. I think, maybe one day he'll say, “I thought I loved you, I thought I accepted your children, but I was wrong.” It hurts to think that time might come. It's like my life is just in a k-drama and not everything has a happy ending.
I often ask myself: was I wrong to fall in love again and hope that someone will stay by my side and accept not only me, but also my children? Back then, the person who promised to love me forever, left me. So now, I'm afraid that my new boyfriend will really be able to sustain our relationship. Is it true that he can love a woman with three children, or maybe he only loves me and can't accept the children?
To all the women or men who are in a relationship with a single mom or single dad, I would like to know: is it true that you accept your partner's children? Or are you sometimes just saying that to keep the relationship going until you get tired of it and find someone else?
Sorry, I know I'm an overthinker. But I don't want to ruin my own happiness because of fear. I just want to be truly happy and loved. And most of all, my children deserve to experience what it's like to have a family that is whole and full of love.
