Hi, I just want to vent all the weight I'm carrying. I can't keep it hidden anymore because I've been suffering for months and there's no one I can talk to who truly understands. I hope that by sharing this, I can at least feel a little better.
I am 39 years old and have a partner who is 41. I thought my life was complete. I had a family, someone I loved, and we would be happy for our children. But life wasn't that easy. Ever since I got pregnant, I noticed something was different about him. He was always out of his mind, always anxious. He always said that there was something wrong with him, that someone wanted to kill him, and that even my family wanted to hurt him. At first, I understood him because he might just be tired or stressed. But as time went on, it got worse.
When the day of my birth came, I hoped that he would be my support. But he wasn't there for me. While I was struggling so much in the hospital, he wasn't there. He said he was scared, so he was always running everywhere. It hurt, because that was the time when I needed him the most, but he left me.
After I gave birth, he worked at his sister's shop. I thought everything would be fine, but I was wrong. He was different. He was always irritable, like he was out of his mind. I don't know, he was already contacting his ex. He even asked for help here to leave the country, because he thought someone was still planning something bad for him. What's more painful is that he told his ex that we were breaking up. And his ex was so stupid, he believed him and even helped him go to Manila.
One day, he suddenly disappeared. No goodbye, no explanation. I didn't hear from him for months. I didn't know where he was, if he was eating, if he was alive. It was so hard because I had to be strong for our children, but inside, I was devastated. Until a woman added me on Facebook. She introduced herself as my partner's cousin and said she was a nurse. She talked to me, asked me a lot of questions, and I answered everything because I thought she was real. We talked for months, but as time went on, I had a hunch that she was my husband's girlfriend.
Until one day, the most painful truth came. My partner called and told me to just find someone else because he had already found a woman to be with. I felt like I was falling apart. We never fought, we never talked about breaking up. I couldn't accept that he was just like that. I cried for months. I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep. It hurt so much. I felt especially sorry for our children because they didn't deserve to lose their father.
Now, I still don't know how I'll get back up. But one thing is clear: I don't want anyone else to experience this pain. I hope they both get karma, because they're so good at cheating. The pain is so much. To this day, I still carry the pain they left in my heart.
